one of those days..

there are days when..i type 'hahahha' or ;) in ym, or even laugh when friends make jokes..but in actual fact, i don't even smile..

there are days when..an innocent self can irritate me so much that instead of the usual.. how kind.. i say.. ahh, you are too good to be true!!(dlm hati la of course)

there are days when..i just want to ping everyone in my ym list or sms everyone in my phonebook and expect someone will say something to cheer me up and get so pissed when they don't even reply..

there are days when..i try so hard to create something to cheer me up yet nothing succeed..

there are days when..tonnes of work don't manage to make me feel occupied, instead i feel so restless..

there are days when..i just don't feel like talking to anyone, communicating with anyone what more ppl who i know would annoy me in every way

there are days when..hearing the phone rings and looking at the caller name can already make my blood pressure to shoot up sky high..though i choose to not pick up the call..

there are days when..half a day has passed yet i'm not even sure if i am breathing..

there are days when..i wish i can varnish from this world and be with him there..

there are days when..i start to make those super-impossible wishes and yet 200% hoping it'll come true

there are days when..i feel extremely down..extremely low.. so very not in the mood.. it makes me miss those comforting hugs multiple times more than usual...

there are days when..i try to recall and wonder what he used to do to make my day?? was it the pleasant smile, or the soothing voice, or.....

there are days when..imagining him in my head is not enough.....i want him here so bad.....physically!!


and... today is one of those days......