erina and him

i woke up VERY late today. this morning after sahur, i read one journal, then tido. bangun subuh then tido blk. i guess this is due to the extremely busy stressfull week!! but maybe i need that. the whole day of yesterday, my eyes rasa mcm stress giler and mcm nak kena migrain je! so bye2 to all the plans this morning. erina is still sleeping and it's 10.30am already! i miss her..

**erina is here, on my laps! :-) ***

my itunes is on and she wanted to hear "Sempurna" by Andra and the Backbone.. yeah, one of her favourite songs these days.. she could already sing along and got some part of the lyrics correct, her fav line "jgn la kau tinggalkan diriku..takkan mampu.." .. sometimes, when she's in the mood, she would sing together with some hand movements :-) maybe i try to snap some videos of her later.

**she's no longer on my laps.. dah start her own activities but still here, in this room**

dia dah besar kan?? and it's miracle how she turns out to be very2 much like him.. the way she hugs me, the way she consoles me, the way she bodek me, the way she talks to me..the way she smiles..she has the same muka-kesian-look, she knows how to win me back when i'm angry - that I-am-guilty-but-please-kesian-me look will always melt my heart.. or when that doesn't work --> leave mummy alone, i'll come back later.. she knows!! and she talks so much..very much, just like him..though sometimes i kinda ok-whatever-whatever, the fact is, I just couldn't get enough and they all stick to my heart!!

she also lovvveesss soup.. nasi putih and soup is her favourite menu (abang standard menu when we ate out - nasi putih and soup sayur)! she loves bee-hun goreng putih (his favourite! he had this almost every day for bukak pose during his last Ramadhan and it's in his special request list masa kat hospital), she hates durian (abang pantang letak durian dlm fridge and dia takpernah nak beli durian yg sebiji2 tuh..dia kata nanti lekat bau.. so we bought yg kat jusco and he would seal pack durian tu sampai takleh kluar bau), she's not a fan of kicap the way i am (abg makan kicap jugak..but obviously not up to my obsession with kicap..hehe).....

to add to that, everyday when i got home in the evening, her cartoon is no longer important to her (just like he put his Verdi and Candi aside, they were important but could always be postponed..).. we will spend so much time on the bed fooling around.. she will laugh her heart out when i tickle her (me and him didn't really do this.. most of the time, we just talked :-) ).. she'll knock the door when i'm in the bathroom still want to play with me..("wei cik adik, buat apa tuh..lamanya mandi..lems* la..dah nak habis maghrib dah ni", he teased me..)then as i perform solat and read the Quran, she lays there on the bed watching and listening quietly (abang's favourite quiet time).. the sight of her there can already make my tears rolling down.. and she'll return my stare with the exact same sengih..

I wonder if this is all just a coincidence or God never really wants him to leave me so God let him lives on through her.. well..only Allah swt knows..

and there's another part of him that still stay with me..... but let me keep that to myself.... for now..

.: *lems = lembap :-)