why? because that's who i am. my brain has this memory that works 24x8. believe me, i could solve C program coding in my sleep. i can go to bed with some syntax/runtime/whatever error, and the next morning within minutes i have it compiled successfully! so imagine when i have something that i can't solve. i know, it's not the end of the world but because it's not la it'll keep torturing me. i cannot live peacefully thinking and wondering if I have hurt anyone's feelings especially people who matter to me. but i learned we are different. i can't do what you are doing now. not to you, not to anyone.
well, i don't blame you coz if i look at it the other way round, perhaps, i'm not in that list of people who in any way bring some meaning to your life. different people give different impact to our lives, i agree. you were there when i need some sincere and rational advice. you've made me see things from different angle. i value your words and yes, it did help me to get over that issue. no more mini-series drama sembilu version.. ok..liar.. drama is on, but i've switched to different channel. i've learnt a lot from you, things some people have never said to me. you made me realize though i can't be someone i am not, i can always take the good of the other person and see things from there.. thank you so much.. i appreciate that, i really do.
but i guess along the way, i may have said or done something i shouldn't or have not done something i should.. or perhaps it's nothing related to my action at all.. but i feel things are not the same anymore.. i don't realize when this all started.. i tried all i could to restore things.. but i think i have to resign to the fact that things are just not meant to be the way they used to be.. and i guess, experience has thought me a lot, i rest my case..
anyway, i hope you know that i am very grateful that Allah swt has let our path crossed, though for such a short period of time. i'm glad that Allah swt sent you to me and let you be that small part of my life when it was at a tough stage. though I do really hope it can continue, it's just out of my control. but you'll always be my friend whom i accept with open heart, for who you are..and yeah, you added some fun elements to my life, i enjoyed watching those games though i still can't accept it..thanks!hehe..
anyway, my dear friend, may Allah swt bless you with wonderful life ahead, dunia dan akhirat..
note to self: smile...................life moves on... :-)
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