so many things to say..

when you are too used to having someone all the time to share all your thoughts (even those simple one like "esok nak bangun pukul brapa eh.." or "nak pakai baju apa eh esok.."), and suddenly that person is gone, then you realized how the presence of one person could change your whole world! and trust me, it sucks big time! i mean.. that feeling of having so many things to say but no one is there to listen.. though last time there were times when i babbled and he has no clue of what i was saying, at least i know he's there "listening".. at least i could let the thoughts and words flow rather than having them stuck in my head like now..

blogging does help to some extend.. but what about things like "apa nak makan tonight?".."malasnya nak mandi".. "penatnya nak pegi buang sampah".."pukul brapa nak bangun esok"... u know simple everyday stuff.. if my mum or my parents are around, would it help? maybe a little bit.. but can i expect when i say "malasnya nak mandi" and somebody would say.. "tu la kan.. jom juz.. sapa kalah kena mandi dulu.." oh i so miss you..

feel free to ignore me.. i'm just rambling.. but it definitely did help when you ask "suggest something to cheer up my day" and someone answer "spa"... hahhahaa...