Tuesday, May 6, 2008

paranoid

i don't like to rasa kesian kat diri sendiri.and i don't like people to feel kesian for me. but sometimes, i wish people understand and stop doing things that can hurt me. i'm already in pain, kenapa la mesti they do something to make it more painful. does that sound like mintak kesian? no! jgn kesian to me, but just please be more...considerate? or sensitive? is that the right word? i don't need people to tell me that he was that sick and erina has the tendency to inherit that from him. i don't need people to remind me that part of erina is his and whatever the virus or bad things he used to have maybe ade kat dlm badan erina jugak.why everything yg happen to erina mesti nak kena relate to him? i would rather hear that from her paed! but when the pros dont say so, why must people keep acting like they know more?? i believe it's enough that i'm the only one who is being paranoid. it's not helping at all to know ade orang lain as paranoid as i am.

anyway erina sayang, get well soon ye sayang..

2 comments:

petite n powerful said...

Dear Nanrfz,
I know exactly what you mean! Its bad enough that we have the constant fear about it already at the back of our mind, but lets leave it there for the time being. We don't need people who may not necessarily know what they are talking about to feed our fears.
Yesterday was the first time I came across you blog. The entries made me cry, as your experiences reflected mine. There are so many young mothers around surviving past ordeals like ours, its mind boggling.....Allah knows best.
PS: Your daughter is beautiful, just like her parents.

May 7, 2008 at 1:28 PM
nanrfz said...

Dear petite n powerful,
Thanks for dropping by. i just can keep on wondering how people think and forgive them.

a fren's blog brought me to yours weeks back. so guess i found you first;) 4yrs passed and still standing, i'm sure will look up at you for inspiration!

May 8, 2008 at 9:40 AM

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