some people..

penatnya.. penat sangat.tak faham. kenapa orang senang blh ckp "kitorang dah buat yg terbaik.." terbaik utk sapa? siapa yg dpt manfaat from "terbaik" tuh? adakah you rasa you dah buat yang terbaik sedangkan orang lain terpaksa berkorban? adakah you rasa you buat yang terbaik bila you dpt accomplish something ikut you punya keselesaan and orang lain pay the price? orang lain kena fikir camana nak change their time to accomodate you? other people have to replan their lives to add you in the plan sedangkan u don't contribute anything?

kenapa orang blh ckp "you have to consider us.." do you think you have shown enough consideration to other people? what kind of consideration do you want? have you ever consider other people have feelings too? do you realize other people have plans too? do you know other people need to manage their time too? pernah tak terfikir because you punya "you have to consider us..", you have broken your promise..and it impact other people's promises too? pernah tak terfikir yg org lain ade their own lives too? what make you think your life and your plan and your time are more important than other people's that you think orang lain kena consider you, instead of you consider orang lain?

and pernah tak, ever, that you feel that you need to respect other people, tak kira la tua ke muda ke..kaya ke miskin ke.. your boss ke or kuli you ke?? because it sure will help you a lot if you do.. it helps you to realize a lot of things i have mentioned above.. incase it's not clear, respect doesn't only mean you salam dgn org tua, or ckp thank you setiap kali.. but the scope is really big -- other people's TIME, privacy, opinion, suggestion, DECISIONS, promises, BELONGINGS and you know what, in this world, not all the time people actually care to "consider you" because if you can be so selfish, why cannot others? i guess kena-la pandai2 sendiri nak fikir camana nak hidup..

i really don't understand. i'm not saying i'm good. i'm far at lower grade than good. but sometimes, people punya behaviour selalu make me wonder. apa diorang fikir bila diorang cakap tuh? for someone yg really risau if my words would offend other people (if you can hear me shouting, then you know you've stepped on my tail!!), i really2 don't understand. don't they ever feel in their hearts that their words hurt other people's feelings? it's just that other people don't say things like "you hurt my feelings..".. or "kecik hati tau buat mcm nih.." like you always do.. they don't say "you have to consider us.." because they have so much respect for you that you can think wisely what you should and you should not do..unfortunately, again and again, it's always very very dissappointing(and pity too) to realize you have not reached that level of thinking and maturity..(i know i'm not alone in this..he felt the same too..too bad, certain things just don't change just yet)..you see, when people choose to be silent, that doesnt mean they all tak kecik hati or that you have not hurt their feelings.. cuma some people they actually use their brains before they speak, as they speak and even after they speak.. well i guess that what make us different.. and I will always thank God for giving me the ability to use His beautiful gift - the brain - wisely enough..

but i will always remember -- i'm not perfect.. i can never be perfect.. but at least i know i'm trying and i will pray everyday, may God show me the path.. the best pada sisi-Nya..because He's the only one who knows what best..