pink book + hair cut + maxis3G

i have this one book that i bought when i first went home since his admission (that should be 24th Feb 2007). i remember he told me "why dont nani tulis what we go thru..nanti kita boleh baca balik.." yup, that's our plan. but due to time contraint and other things, i only managed to write once, and that was on Monday night 26th Feb 2007. It's a 2-page entry so i just capture a part of it:

Today is the 13th night abang at HUKM. Alhamdulillah abang is progressing well so far...(then i rambled about what happened on 13th Feb)...Alhamdulillah, according to prof, though he is recovering very slowly, he has been very strong. It's the 5th day after last day of the fist chemo, the 12th day since the chemo started. He looked very OK for the past few days, but today he's a bit gloomy. He claimed he felt a bit tired and he slept most of the time today.. From his face, I could tell something is really bothering him..(then i went on about what i felt..you know those things people normally write in a so-called diary)

I totally forgot about this book and only realized its existance while searching for something in one of the paperbags that we brought back from hospital (that's after few month i left those stuff untouched).Now, as I'm writing(typing), i can still picture what it was like when that writing session took place. The feeling was indescribable, but with him right in front of me, I couldn't ask for more.

On 27th Feb, I went home again to have hair cut. He refused to have anyone to replace me. I guess he needed some time on his own as well. But of course maxis owed him big time for the pouring smses he sent me ;-) Among those that i still keep till today (yeah..it's been in my hp for a yr now.. i even have his sms sent 5yrs ago :-)):
"Dah sampai ke?brape duit teksi tadi?i had a great chic chop for lunch.habis semua:-)alhamdulillah.."

"Kat mana?kul brapa dtg? Jgn ler lari :-) Love you sayang."

The next day, 28th Feb was my first appearance at the office after the news spread. Thanks to Jun for the lift. What a relief to finally have a long chat with someone who was not part of "the battle". Sorry la kak if i bore you. Actually,the only reason i went to office was to get my 3G internet connection in place so that I could start accessing the LAN from the hospital. As expected, my teammates were surprised to see me. Questions started pouring in and before more people noticed my presence there, i decided to find a hiding place. Lucky there's a discussion room available. Being alone in the room gave me ample time to complete my stuff:

1-call my sayang to make sure he's ok ;-) and he replied my sms:
"don't worry about me.I'm ok.Try to settle the connection if possible. if give up, then take cab to hospital.i miss you already.ok. jgn tension n rileks."
2-get my 3G internet connection in place- after so much effort googling for some tips and tricks
3-call my boss to update him and plan my new temporary working schedule (he also sent me my salary letter..but didn't feel like "celebrating" it at that time)
4-call FIL - need to tumpang him back to hospital
5-call zamri - to arrange time to pick me up
6-chat with his concerned friends (not in my initial plan though)
7-call my sayang to inform him i'll tumpang FIL to hospital so he didn't have to worry.

in the car, i received another sms:
"Nani duduk mana dlm v6?:-) chic chop kurang sedap tadi. fries minyak gel :-( nak mkn sikit nanti. tapi cukup ke for both of us."

We were so glad that now we could get connected to internet via maxis 3G and started our research and that also meant i have to start working:-( but thanks to the flexible working time (self-managed) and "concentrate-on-simple-tasks" plan, i couldn't be more grateful. actually i insist to start do some work out of guilt (ye la..brapa lama taknak keje kan..and hey, i didn't score that ipf for nothing!haha.benci tak ckp camtuh. menyampah kan!perasan bagus!) abg, being the very understanding guy that he was, let me do my work and he made things so much easy for me and both of us. we came up with our own timetable and it helped me to juggle my work and him. that work very well until the day i received another heartbreaking news..