Hot Sunday!

it was damn hot i couldn't even open my eyes, and yet there were a bunch of kids menari tarian melayu on the stage. are they out of their mind? but, at that age maybe they think it's fun..used to menjemurkan diri as well back in tkc..cadets, hockey.. come to think of it, how "cool" that make me last time??
being on the field and seeing so many manusia make me think.. are they happy? do they have problems? why they choose to be there? (dah la panas..haha) and me? what the hell am i doing there..happy?not really.. problems??MANY! but guess life just moves on..once in a while, i like being alone, in the middle of a crowd who don't know me. i can do whatever i want without having to worry somebody is judging me..or worry that i hurt someone's feeling..i spent at least 1 hr and a half just sit there fikir entah apa2..(dgn panas giler tu, i still can think??hemh..) before i finally met my friend who then left after 5 minutes!dugghhh...
it feels so strange that now i hv no one to dengar and layan my craps (and vice versa) i'm so used to having him around..share every single thing.. just let out whatever cross our mind.. agree and disagree on things..argue(oh yes..dua2 nak menang of course;-) ).. have someone to comment if i should buy the shoes or not(which most of the time is NO!),do something just because he wants me to (ie eat my vitamins, mandi awal).. i miss those time..and i miss him..