the comfort zone

i wonder, since he passed away, have i ever tried to actually live alone and accepted the fact that i am now living without him? have i really accepted the fact that he's gone? i think i accepted he's gone, but i have not realized that he has left me. my mind belum compute kot that now i'm alone? i don't have him anymore.. ye ke? kenapa there are always things yg keep me thinking that he has never left me? or me myself yg create those things so i can always be in that comfort zone?