recovering..

went back to hometown last tuesday. the long leave was planned to join rombongan cik kiah to KT on thur-friday. wed night, while all the kaum-kerabat berkumpul in the living hall, me in the room just couldnt stop crying. didn't want them to see the tears. they were there to attend a wedding, not a funeral. i couldnt think of a thing to distract my attention. later, a friend's suggestion brought me in front of the tv, watching sports-olympic athletics, then switched to diving. yes. it works.though not 100%. but at least no more tears.thanks for "thinking" for me.

we are back in KL and still feeling so exhausted. we initially planned to drive back this evening, but i think we've made the right decision to come back last night. at least we have this one day to recover before driving back to my mum's hometown tomorrow for another wedding! tak suka nya! well, not that i don't like weddings.. but i hate how the supposedly happy occasion can turn my mood upside down.

anyway, alhamdulillah i think i feel so much better and kind of happy today. the factors that contributed to this better mood are not clear. could have been a mix of so many things, internal and external :-) i just want to think that Allah swt has answered my prayers. have I not asked HIM to give me strength and to make the sad mood go away? so i'm gonna enjoy this and hope and pray that it'll stay..

and this picture definitely makes me smile..