17 months

i had a weird dream last night. i dreamt you passed away. but it's nothing close to the actual thing that had happened. it's totally different, at different place and i got to perform solat jenazah for you. the one thing that remain the same was I DID NOT CRY..
i woke up feeling all confused, the feeling I have not had for some time -> is this just a dream? where's abang? is he outside tgh basuh kereta?.. and i found myself wishing for the exact same thing like before -> dear God, please tell me this is all a dream. please make this a dream. please let me hear his voice. please let me see him at the door.please let me feel his hugs...

astaghrafillullahhalazim.. i turn to my right.. erina's cute face pulled me back into reality world.. the funeral last night was a dream, the actual one had passed about 17 months ago and he's gone.. that's reality..