i'll get there

i read back all my blog entries today.. sometimes i think i sound like an old lady who's counting the days to her funeral.. but sometimes i was like an energetic teenager, really looked forward to life and couldn't wait for tomorrow. i guess that pictured the instable emotion, confusing state of mind, the ups and downs of my life for the past 1yr..

how much have i changed? how much have i moved on? questions i really couldn't answer.. but i do hope i've changed for the better and i do think i've moved on, though maybe at snail's pace, at least, i'm moving..

blogging world has informally "introduced" me to many other people who went through almost the same experience.. i didn't know them personally...but i do look up at their writings as one of my sources of inspiration.. one thing i noticed, they are all older than me ;-) so perhaps our views on life is a little bit different here and there as we look at it from different perspectives.. but they are truly an eye-opener .. ye la.. learn from the seniors ;-)

i think, it has been a really long time since i feel happy, as in REALLY HAPPY.. i almost forgot how it feels.. will i be able to be that HAPPY again? hmm.. i hope so.. yeah.. why not.. it's ok.. i'll get there..insya Allah..