H.A.P.P.Y!!

i'm trying not to get too excited. but it surprised me to be able to feel this happy.. as in really happy.. no 'but' this time.. i am happy and truly happy, for no specific reason.. or for all reasons?? i don't know.

yesterday, as i was driving to office, i realized i was smiling all the way.. smile and happy.. not the usual smile i had put on for the past 1 year.. i did ask myself, what has got into me?? my happy heart and mind couldn't come out with even one clear reason. i didn't bother to find one perhaps, instead i just felt like enjoying it.. erina did add more flowers to the day when she put on a "calm", not happy, but very calm face as I sent her to the door of her daycare.. no more tears! before i left she said "sayang mummy".. i melt...

there were not many people in the office when i arrived.. it was still early..still happy, i switched on my notebook and since i've not been in the office for 3days, it took some time to boot up.. normally if I'm not fasting, i'll walk to the pantry to get some water from the dispenser.. i'm not so coffee/tea/nescafe person.. milo yes, but very occasionally.. prefer it cold though.. since i was fasting yesterday (13 to go!!) and feeling still so very happy, i decided to share it with somebody else my heart might burst ;-) if only i could call that first name in my phonebook, i would.. but he already knew anyway, so I called mak instead..

after being so laid back at the office for the past few weeks, yesterday i felt so energetic! and many things just turned out right.. the new service that was put on hold for months would be live, finally! which means I got work to do now.. my boss liked the cost model i proposed, more requests in my queue.. good! this would keep me busy.. i could feel the pressure now.. hehehe.. a little bit of pressure is always good for me..

next, i received an email from my new supervisor!! hehe.. guess it's about time i decide on this one.. so a "regret" email sent to k.mah..informal notice.. will definitely follow up with a proper one soon.. haven't got the guts to talk to her..just yet.. let's not ruin the happy mood..heheh.. and eventually after so many topics that i "made believe" i have interest in, i landed on one that i have confidence in (???) hehe.. or i actually have confidence in the person who proposed it (you better be good, mr sv!), instead of the topic itself.. well, i know many-many people may not agree with this decision.. but i think this time, i just need to follow my instinct.. this will give ample time for Erina besar sikit so they will allow her into the hall.. i surely want her to be there... (ok, i know ni semua ayat2 nak menyedapkan hati sendiri..it's ok..i'll take it..) at least now i know what to google and have a bit of idea what to type in the chapters before the results and conclusions..

well, if i were to rate the day, i'd give it 8/10.. the other 2 - somebody called for a discussion at 5 when i was about to log-off and erina still nak berdukung kalau pegi mana2!!

today, everything is still looking good! except..........somebody told me "you've gained some weight!!!" ..like...what???
Erina, we better stop indulging ourselves in that tasty, yummilicious Nutella!!