I've been working from home for 3 days in a row. From mentally and emotionally unstable, now i'm down with flu and sore throat. today, i feel like i'm having fever, so I went to see the doctor.but the doctor said my temperature is normal??? whatever..
i couldn't sleep last nite. I woke up almost every hour. My whole body ached!! For a while I thought, am I gonna die tonight?? Then my crazy mind started thinking.. if this is my last night, means i don't have to suffer from missing him anymore.. which is good coz i really cannot stand the pain any longer.. but then when i looked at my dear princess, how could I ever thought of leaving her alone in this world?? how could I? i know very well how hard and how painful it is to lose someone I love with all my heart.. how could i let dear princess go through that terrible experience???what kind of a mother I am?
well, then i thought, if God wants it to be that way, what can I do...it's just beyond my control.. and Allah swt knows best.. all i can do is to pray that Allah swt will always give His bless to my dear princess and myself to go through this life..we will never know what's in store for us in future...but I know as long as I believe Allah swt is with me, I will never be alone..
i couldn't sleep last nite. I woke up almost every hour. My whole body ached!! For a while I thought, am I gonna die tonight?? Then my crazy mind started thinking.. if this is my last night, means i don't have to suffer from missing him anymore.. which is good coz i really cannot stand the pain any longer.. but then when i looked at my dear princess, how could I ever thought of leaving her alone in this world?? how could I? i know very well how hard and how painful it is to lose someone I love with all my heart.. how could i let dear princess go through that terrible experience???what kind of a mother I am?
well, then i thought, if God wants it to be that way, what can I do...it's just beyond my control.. and Allah swt knows best.. all i can do is to pray that Allah swt will always give His bless to my dear princess and myself to go through this life..we will never know what's in store for us in future...but I know as long as I believe Allah swt is with me, I will never be alone..
May Allah swt be with us every step of the way..
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