kancil & jazz back-to-back

today blk from office ikut LDP. lalu in front of e//..teringat time dulu i fetch him.. will wait for him in front of the lobby sampai pak guard tu jeling2.. how i really miss those time.. missnye nak fetch abang kat e//..then teringat sometimes kitorang akan blk together but in separate cars.. normally he would drive the kancil and i'd drive jazz.. how i wish the kancil ade kat blakang tadi..it makes me really-really sad..btw, last saturday, BIL got engaged. i was invited to join the occasion. a day before the day, dah rasa mcm takde mood and malas nak pegi..entahla.. tetiba rasa sedih tu dtg and teringat balik our engagement day.. on the day itself, it got worse! i couldn't even look at ceremony menyarung cincin and photo session.. and paling2 i couldn't stand is bile the part the girl's mum nak sarung cincin to BIL..teringat sgt2 pd dia.. rasa mcm ternampak dia je kat depan tuh.. rasa mcm nampak everything that happened on that day.. rasa terdengar each and every word that came from his mouth.. at that moment, i feel like my tears boleh kluar anytime!! afraid that i would end up crying in front of the crowd, i told my mum i wanted to go back.. no questioned asked.. we headed home.. the event dah finish anyway..just tinggal sessi bergambar je.. i wonder how i'm going to attend BIL's wedding nanti.. sure akan lagi multiple times sedih dia.. entah.. abg, i miss you so much... dah lama abg tak sapukan lotion kat nani..dah lama tak rasa abg punya reflexology..dah lama tak dengar abg ckp "sayang abang sikit".. i miss you..i really really miss you..