i miss you like mad...

i miss you like mad..
i felt happy that i heard you entered the bathroom this morning, yeyy! another 10 minutes sleep for me..

i miss you like mad..
i saw you standing at the door, half dressed, shivering while i ironed your shirt.. and as always, you never miss the "thank you" and the kiss..

i miss you like mad..
i could smell your aftershave.. you knew i always love you clean shaved.. that's how you look when we first met, our first date, our wedding day..

i miss you like mad..
i heard you said "we should have slept early last night".. i heard you said "erina, jgn buat mummy mcm tuh..mummy penat tuh.." i heard you said.. "thank you sayang, sebab bangun mlm buat susu erina.."

i miss you like mad..
i thought i saw your email in my mailbox.. just to remind me "drink a lot water!!" and "rindunya kat erina".. and as always, ended by "i love you sayang, yours always: your hubby"

i miss you like mad..
i smiled as we had our normal are-we-going-to-have-lunch-together and where-to-go session, started from an hour before lunch time..

i miss you like mad..
i thought i saw you in your grey shirt, black khakhis, clean shaved, very short hair (baru potong no. 2 ;) ) queuing to take your food and suddenly turn, smile and wink at me from far, in the middle of the crowd.. i always thought that was so romantic of you whenever you did that...

i miss you like mad..
i seriusly felt like i saw you in the car, waiting for me at the road side.. i could feel the excitement that the day was finally over and i was going home... to YOU and Erina...........

i miss you like mad..
i seriusly saw you in front of me, talking to me, telling me about your days.. the details of the sneak preview that i've already got from your emails, the ym, the phone calls earlier today at the office.. and i was pouring my heart out about this and that.. and as always..."let's migrate.. i couldn't stand this any longer!!"

i miss you like mad..
i thought i saw you at the dinning table.. concentrating on that laptop of yours.. working on the verdi, the candy, bla bla bla..noticed i was staring, you stared back and winked ;) i just love that! once in a while you picked up your hp, and while one hand was holding the hp, the other kept on clicking the mouse... i got up to get you your headset, you smiled and mock a kiss for me..

i miss you like mad..
i saw you walked to the kitchen.. i heard the familiar sound..then i heard "nani, makan vitamins!", i replied "ok.. jap lagi laaa" and before i realized, you were beside me.. with a glass of water and my vitamins in your palm...

i miss you like mad..
as erina was already asleep, i heard you said "macam lapar kan" and soon i found us in the kitchen, masak maggi.. maggi kari with kacang buncis for you and mee goreng indome for me.. teh-O panas and milo ais complete the menu.. :-)

i miss you like mad..
i found us stucked in front of the tv when we already said "jom tido!".. it's either 'amazing race' (repeat), CSI Vegas, or sometimes simply some tv shows that we never watched during other time yet at 1 am, it could get us glued on the sofa!

i miss you like mad..
i just couldn't sleep, i didn't want to see the bed coz it would remind me that you are not coming back.. and no matter what i saw or i heard, they were just in this small box in my head.. they are the memories that will keep me company my entire life....