you there?

dear abang,
i have tried not to talk to you, write to you or ym you anymore. but how can i when i have something wandering in my head and all the people in my "trust" list is not available now to listen and share this with me. mak is here but i cannot share this with her just yet.

just now, i was trying really hard to absorb "genetic algorithm" but these questions keep popping up. these few days, i've been quite busy at the office (with work and not-so-work stuff) but still it was not sufficient to erase these questions or even hide it for a while. yesterday, i was driving on the elite highway, feeling excited about the joget thingy, and yet still ade jugak these questions terselit-selit. when i started questioning myself in my sleep, then i know i really need to work on these questions.

i don't want to post the questions here. i hope God will send someone tonight, with whom i can share this thing that constantly bothering me. or else i'm gonna have another night analyzing it in my sleep :( pathetic, isn't it. i wanna cry.. i think people are bored with me..i know.. mengadu pada Tuhan is the best kan.. coz Tuhan tak pernah bosan. you are so right sayang.

exhausted me.