another day off

i have an appointment with e/ today.went there with my father. went home after that. made few calls to the banks to ask about the claim progress. overall, almost ok except one or two things that still ongoing..very slowly..
i think people are getting bored with me.. i somehow feel that they are trying to "run away" from me. perhaps they are bored to hear the same stories again and again..you know that kind of look and response.."here goes the same thing again.." and even from the reply i got when i chat on YM.it hurts actually to receive such cold response.. but i don't blame them..they have their own problems and i should not have bothered them with mine. but sometimes, i just want to have someone to talk to..someone who is willing to lend their ears for me.. i don't hope them to understand or crash their head to think for a solution or advise..i just hope they would listen and 'act' as if they are interested and symphatize...well, that may still require some effort i guess..i feel so sad..really..as if I'm totally alone and no one cares..sometimes i find myself 'acting' ok just to keep up with others..otherwise no one would want to befriend with me or chat with me..when i think back, that's why he was and IS so special to me.he knows me well..he knows what i need in different kind of mood/condition! he was always there to listen..even though at times i talk craps..he knows when he just needs to listen or when he really needs to come out with some advise or suggestion..i miss him so much!!! hey you people, thank you so much for your concern and support.. i really do appreciate it. i know you've done so much for me..and i wouldn't ask for more.i'm truly sorry if i bored you with my stories and my problems..i will try not to bother you..if i still do, just knock my head and yell at my face! i'm not surprised if you pray that i disappear from your life..as sometimes i, myself wish i do..just like he suddenly dissappeared from mine..