time heals? i really doubt it..

i have kept myself busy. i have "saiko" myself, i have tried to divert my attention towards everything else, i have not only tried, but i have done everything i could... but still i have PLENTY of space to think about your smile, your hugs, your voice.. YOU!! everything about you.. why oh why.. i am so missing you... i'm not well for the past days.. so does erina.. i'm scared Allah swt will be angry with me for I really wish you are here now.. i thought people say time heals.. but why i think i am moving from the normal ward to the high dependency ward?? oh please, i dont want to even imagine the icu...